Poetry

Confessions of an Honest Man

I say I’m a Christian, yet I know not Him;
I say that I know Jesus, while still drowning in sin.
Unaware of the strife, that my actions have caused;
As I gossip at work, and make fun of the lost.
I boast in my pride of all that I do;
Making casual the sin, and the things that ensue.
Yes my life is a kingdom! My throne is all set!
I live life by the moment, with no fear of regret.
The sexual pleasures and liquor! My feet race toward my heart!
Quicker and quicker, there’s no tearing us apart!
But the things I see not, are the results of my past;
And suddenly I’m gone, too late and too fast…
When I stand before God, oh what a sight do I see!
The King of Heaven enthroned, and waiting for me.
I’m stunned by His beauty, and fierceness as well;
I see his gaze and his eyes, where sorrow now dwell.
“Be gone son of Satan, you breaker of laws!
You claim to know me, yet your twisted and flawed.
Grotesque is the word that first springs to my mind;
As I think of your deeds done in flesh and in pride.
Yes I knew you not once, in the heart I so cherish;
I came myself to your world, so that you may not perish.
But alas here we are! You never once let me in!
Though I knocked on your heart, again and again.
Now its time to depart, away from my sight you shall go!
Forever forgotten, and forever alone.
I did not want this to happen, but your choice was made clear!
When you spit on my name, and all I hold dear.”
Father wait! I cry out, with both fear and despair;
I was deceived by my church! Please God it’s not fair!
I listened to liars, and was tricked into sin;
But God I have served you, both now and back then!
“You’re here for one crime alone, but shall be punished for many;
For my Spirit was willing, but your heart was not ready.
Now be gone into darkness! My words shall stay true;
For surely I say, that I never knew you….”